I worry. Right now, I worry most about Flora. She seems to not want to go to school every day. After nearly a week off because of Easter, she asked if she could stay home on Thursday.

I worry that I haven’t had the time to check in with her about what that’s about. I worry about the brown bags under her eyes, and why she doesn’t seem to be sleeping well. I worry that I’m not giving her enough to eat during the day, or that she’s just not eating what I do give her. I worry that our chronically chaotic mornings are part of the problem. I worry about her tendency to fall apart at the smallest thing.

I worry a bit about Michael. I don’t think he’s getting enough sleep during the day. He barely lasts until 7 p.m. during the week, and he is a clingy mess starting about 6:30 p.m. He gets a lot of calming baths. I worry about the fact that I haven’t started weaning him from his evening bottle.

While I could come up with something to worry about with Kate, the fact that I can’t think of something off the top of my head is actually very reassuring.

Will I always take turns worrying about the kids? Will Kate be my primary worry next week, next year? How do I deal with this? Do I just take it one kid at a time? How can I sit down one-on-one with Flora to talk about what she needs from me, especially when I have two other children clamoring at me? (Flora doesn’t clamor, she clams up.)

What do I do?

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